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And I lived; naive and so young.

Friday, 26 April 2013

Everlasting.

I'm proud to be part of this Sapphire Blue Sea.

Hello kiddos.

E for today, so I decided to dedicate this to my third family. (: Was looking through the SS5 Brazil fancams today morning, and I watched them performing Ai Se Eu Te Pego - a brazil song. There's so many Kyumin interaction in the fancams I almost died. I watched many many different fancams for that one song, didn't exactly watch fancams of the other performances since Ai Se Eu Te Pego is the special stage for Brazil.. Hehe. Wanted to post the videos here but I figured it'd be rude to the owners so nah. But do spend 2 minutes of your life to watch it, it's so precious.

Left school early today, skipped PE lesson. Went for my Dental Appointment. First tightening today, felt really nervous at first.. hmmm. It isn't as bad nor as pain as the first time round. They freaking changed the wire to the thicker ones. Heard my dental saying something like using the 18-25 one for my upper teeth and 17-25 for the lower teeth. And I'm sitting down there like "Yep, I can totally understand everything that you're saying" I was really worried at first because I'd be taking my Chinese Oral tomorrow, what if I can't speak ?! When I first put the braces on, I couldn't even speak. lol.

I get fucking annoyed whenever people don't reply me. It's so bloody rude, who do you think you are? Okay, y'know what? I don't care anymore. I won't talk to anybody anymore unless they talk to me first. I'm sick and tired of getting ignored. Not only that, it makes me look so pathetic and retarded. I'm not hard up for it lah okay. Like, just go screw yourself. You're nobody. You shouldn't be making me feel like shit, you don't have the rights to.

And my mother keeps nagging at me for not doing my work, okay, I get it, I'd do it later. Okay nevermind forget it. I'm just contradicting myself. On one hand, I'm insisting that I'm aware of what I'm doing and that I don't need anybody to tell me what to do. And on the other, I'm feeling shittier than ever when I cannot do things according to what I planned. And I'd be like I really need somebody to keep me on track. Two people told me that they'd help make sure I study. Lies. Fucking liars. Everybody's selfish. Nobody gives a shit, except my parents of course. So yes, I shouldn't complain about their consistent naggings ~~even though it's really annoying.~~

Sometimes, I just hate everybody & everything. Nope, most of the time. Heh. I freaking hate my so-called bestfriend, my so-called soulmate, my so-called everything. They're nothing but a bunch of assholes. Seriously. And for the past few days of my life, I thought I actually liked somebody. And of course I was wrong. He's such a mean asshole I can't wait to throw a chair at his face, not to mention liking him. Hate them. Hate everybody. I feel so disgusted with myself every time I actually think I like somebody. It's impossible, for now, we're all still too immature. Which is why I feel disgusted when people tell me how deeply they are in love with their crushes or every girlfriend/boyfriend at this age. Dude, you're freaking 16 +/-, calm down.

And I swear, I'd never ever help anybody get into the good books of their crushes. It's stupid, very stupid. I don't want to waste my time on such bullshit. Leave me out of all these.

Honestly, I feel like burning your face every time I see you smiling/laughing with her. She's such a flirt. And you're such an asshole. Perfect match. And nope, I won't ever talk to either of you again, unless I realllllllly have to.

I'm so full of hate I really need to bathe in cool refreshing milk or soya-bean to calm myself down. Argh. Oh and my asshole of a brother freaking drank the soya-bean I bought. -______- Okay, I swear I won't be so angsty tomorrow. Promise. But nope, I'm not having PMS. lol

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