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Saturday 18 January 2014

Collection of O-level results.

Not bad right?

140113: d-day.

Felt really weird that morning, it's like I woke up then I don't know what to do. Then I remembered that I'm meeting my friends at 9:00am for breakfast so I have to get out of bed. I was so determined to go for a morning jog that day to clear my mind... but I was really lazy as well, so I ended up running on the treadmill for around 20 minutes only. Then I went to bathe and change into my uniform for the very last time (as a Temasekian, not to mention the first few days of JC). Feels like I've shrank because my skirt seems to be longer than before. LOL. It just felt weird wearing uniform again I guess?

Then met Singhui at our usual place before heading to meet Jonathan and Jiamao for breakfast. Even though I didn't say anything, I was actually nervous as hell, I don't know why. Like, there's this really weird feeling in my stomach, then I didn't really have the appetite to eat as well so I ended up wasting my food. Damn. We ate Vegetarian food together. haha.

Uhm, ate breakfast at the St. Hilda's area. LOL. Yeah, looking super glam because I was rubbing my eye. :-)

Then Jon went off for some interview.

Right, here's a really embarrassing Charmaine. The McDonald staff gave it to me, so, why not?

Then at around 1:00pm, I met Haowei and Clifton. Wanted to buy milktea but I was really so nervous I didn't buy it, or else I'd prolly just vomit eveyrthing out later. So I bought Ovaltine's. Heyhey.

Because Haowei and Clifton didn't wanna take a selfie with me.

Oh, when we reached school, the atmosphere was really warm yet AWKWARD because the lower Secondary students were like forming a line, from the school gate all the way to the school hall, to "Welcome the graduated students (us) home". There was a jam at the school gate because everybody was too awkward to enter. LOL. I was so fascinated that I recorded a video of the students as I walked down the walk of fame.

Uhm, I think these are the Secondary 3 students in the hall?

Right, my class, waiting. LOL.

Before the Principal even start talking, Mr Eng aleady came up to us and told us that we did better than expected. He also told me personally that I did quite well for Physics. I was kinda shocked though. Then Nadiah and Jolene were like asking him to stop telling us, ROFL, so he went off. Really nice that he actually came back to check on our results even though he didn't stay and help give out. LOL.

The Principal started talking at around 2:00pm sharp? Really emotional because the teachers went on stage to toast the students good bye and thank us for our effort. The statistics really made me damn scared because the distinction rates for the subjects I took were kinda low and I freaked out of course. My batch did do better than expected, like they always say.. but we did worse than the batch before us, which was really saddening. Really la, all the statistics freaked me out. I really felt sad and I was convincing myself to not pin my hope too high. Zz. They got the students with 7 distinctions and above to stand. When it was 4/2 students' turn (they flashed the names according to the classes) I was so happy for that moment because I thought I saw my name, but actually, it isn't, it's Clemence's. LOL BECAUSE BOTH OUR NAMES SO LONG PLUS BOTH START WITH C. WALAO. Luckily I never stand. I only thought I saw my name for that 0.5 second I guess. Then I cried because I didn't get to stand of course..

At around 3:00pm the teachers started distributing the results. Then, Erin told me she got 7 raw. At first I was like "omg can go VJC" then after awhile I realized that she took HMT, and she got an A1 for that, so it means her net score is 3, so I started crying because I realized she can go RI and HC. oh my god. DAMN PROUD OF HER T_T lol Hugged her and cried. CRIES, she's so smart. My class' queue for our results was really slow because Mr Eng wasn't there to help Mdm Ma out and she had to collect those overdue funds as well. IAnd sad to say, we collected our results according to our O-level register number, and not the class register number. And I was the second last to collect my results in my class. Fml right? I cried while waiting then Mdm Liang go comfort me. I love that woman la, she taught me for 4 years already okay. I cried again when Mrs Teo say Erin was the only A1 for Chemistry in our Chem sub class, because Chem was my strongest science, and if I don't get A1 for that, it means my science no distinction already lor, no hope already.... So obviously I was damn sad.

I received my results at aroun 4:40pm? By that time I already lost all my feels la please. LOL. But Vicky and Erin volunteered to stay back after they collected their results to wait for me. Damn nice. The moment I sat down and face Mdm Ma, I down there tearing up already. LOL. Damn dog. Then she gave me this slip of paper, then she was like teasing me, she loves doing that,. I think she's sadistic when it comes to me I guess. I was shaking when I filled up that sheet of paper, then she was like "Only the good students need to fill that up" (in Chinese) then my feels exploded already. There's this question that asks how many distinctions did I get on tht slip of paper, then before I wrote, she was like "You have 6 distinctions." then my feels exploded again. Then she showed me the result slip. I started crying before I even read it, because my feels exploded twice already. Then I hugged Mdm Liang (She was helping Mdm Ma out) hurrrrrr. //Ps I regretted not hugging Mdm Ma because I flew off to a corner to open the Form A after I hugged Mdm Liang. Fak me right?

So before I even open my form A, Vicky & Erin were already counting my L1R5 based on my result slip. LOL. Damn. I was kinda pissed before I collected my result slip because there are some people that were trying to boast to me. And I was really insecure about my own results so I was really upset la. I really didn't know what to feel after I know my L1R5 though. It's like relatively good because I was expecting something worse. But at the same time, it's kinda saddening because I know I cannot get into my dream school already. It's ironic. I really didn't know what to feel. Called my parents and told them. My mum was super happy, while my dad was like okay meh, LOL. I started feeling really happy after I felt how happy my mum was. Made her proud I guess? :D

Went to lepak at Bedok Mall with Vicky afterwards.

And yeah, I bought frozen yogurt for myself. To reward myself I guess? Then talked to Vicky for awhile, discussing about what are we going to do from now on and then we went our separate ways and headed home. I went over to my grandmother's house for dinner though. It was my grandmother's birthday too. So I showed her my cert and told her that's her gift this year. lol. Yeah, she was happy. :)

I kinda didn't want people to know my results because I really don't know what to feel about it. And then apparently a lot of people already knew about my results because some ass told them and also because I was tweeting about the schools I'm eligible for on twitter. Damn it, I'm so dumb? Okay, I deleted those tweets though. If you want to know about my results, then come and ask me personally. Actually, I want people to ask me personally because I want to have a chance to ask them for their results too. But obviously, I wouldn't approach them directly and ask them about it because I think they might either judge or call me insensitive. I really didn't ask anybody for their results unless they asked me for mine first. Haha.

Uhmm, I was kinda pissed with some retards on twitter. There were a lot of people that were criticizing people who "did well" but still cry because they "didn't do as well like they expected themselves to" or rather those people who "cries because they got an A2 rather than an A1" lol please, shut up. You do not know how much it matters okay. It's like if you have 6 distinctions but all A2, your L1R5 would be 12, and you can't get into your dream school if your dream school is something like VJC. It really does matters. Why are you guys judging? It's really dumb to think that people who did better than you do not have the rights to feel upset or to whine and cry over their results. If you're not as good, suck it up. You do not have the rights to criticize them just because you feel bad about yourself. Different people have different expectations and goals. And actually those people who criticized the "better students who were disappointed because they didn't do as well -__-" people are the insensitive ones, not those who actually feel bad about their own results. -__- Insensitive people who feel bad for their own sorry asses should seriously go and die.

Okay, bye bye. :)

Ps, If you wanna kpo about my results or my 12 choices for JAE, ask me directly. AND YOU CAN ENTERTAIN ME HERE WITH YOUR NONSENSE.

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