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Friday, 31 October 2014

double update

30th October 2014:

Finally done with all written (not exactly, I actually typed them y'see..) work for project work. I was struggling so damn hard with my insight & reflection. I mean, since it is supposed to be my insights and reflections, why don't you just let me say whatever the hell I have in mind? ZZZ. And I really do not understand why we need to come up with new GOI for I&R, when you do post-activity reflections, you don't usually come up with new ideas isn't it... Reflections generally mean that you are so done with this thing, thus you're just going to reflect on what went wrong and yep, that's about it, case close.

Oh right, of course, it's also the day for the writing of good luck messages for the J2 students to encourage them for Alevel's. This is a CLExco-Student council collaboration actually... lol I'm going to rant a bit here. I feel like there wasn't really a need for this collaboration, SC could have actually just taken this whole project themselves. Well, I was the in-charge for this activity while Shimin is the other in charge. It's like she's representing SC while I am representing CLExco. There really weren't much "collaboration" because rather than actual discussion, it is more like one side coming up with ideas while the other just listening. And of course, I'm the one listening. I mean, it's important to take ownership of what you're doing if you want to be a successful leader. But, what if, you aren't exactly given a chance to "take ownership" at all? That's pretty unfair to me in my opinion. But of course, I could have taken the initiative to voice up my thoughts as well, but there isn't really much to say when somebody is already there telling you what to do. I mean, it'll prolly make it look as if I'm trying to be anal or trying to claim some credit, so nah. It's almost as if I'm there just for the sake of being there. But yeah, it was an interesting experience I'd say. Like, the SC were pretty nice to get along with when we executed the distribution, collection, as well as the hanging up of the boards. And I sincerely hope that from now on, if need there be another collaboration, my team will be given the chance to contribute more. I really believe that we shouldn't be having people there just for the sake of having them there.

Also, 30th October is a Thursday, so of course there will be training. I was really shagged from the overnight I&R session as well as sitting at the SSW for 4 hours or so, waiting for boards, wrapping boards. Of course it isn't physically tiring, but trust me, it drains you out mentally, and that is so much worse than being physically drained. I guess that is how it is when you are burned out. The last time I felt this burned out (oh wait, or is it burnt out? Not sure.. Correct me if I'm wrong) was during Olevel's period. lol yeah it's during O's, not after. I just felt really tired and I just don't feel like doing anything at all. Like y'know, you just simply get tired of everything so you just don't feel like doing anything. Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now. Other than reading fics, rehearsing for OP, eating,= and sleeping, there's practically nothing I feel like doing. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I feel like rehearsing for OP, it's just that if I don't, Aubrey will kill me and I cannot do well for PW. Alright, back to handball. Just when I've made up my mind to just quit and solely focus on CLExco and my studies, something just have to happen and reignite my passion for handball. lol. Okay so Singapore Poly's (I think, not too sure) boys team came down to play yesterday. And oh my gosh the match was so interesting. T_T I was totally captivated by the way both teams play. It was so intense as well, the players were all so damn good.. I really look forward to being able to play like the right wing guy with his hair/fringe tied up with a red rubber band. He played really well, but if I am not wrong, he is a left hander, which makes it easier for him to play as a left winger I guess. Uhmm because I was busy with the boards + completely burned out yesterday, I didn't attend training. But I went to watch the match between SP & NY of course. And I dragged Choo and Liting along with me. They were quite captured and fascinated by the game as well. HAHA. BUT! Liting kept insisting that the right-winger I was talking about look like Kyungsoo... Then I am just like "lol, no". I do have a fetish for guys who tie up their fringe though.

Had a great time talking to Choo and Liting though. It's really nice spazzing or just talking about guys sometimes. HAHAHAHA. I mean, come on, we're all 17 years old with raging hormones. SO LOOKING FORWARD TO LATE NIGHT H2H TALK WITH THEM NEXT WEEK!!! It's going to be so fun and interesting. Hehehehe.

Oh, I told my mum to packet soup for me for dinner. But she ended up not listening and dabao-ed this for me for dinner. lol.... And of course I ended up eating it with the soup that I said I wanted. PS, it's from my grandma's house, not from outside. So it's some lovely home cooked food yeah? Tasted really really really good though. hehehe

31st October 2014:

I freaking dreamt of my first ever (and prolly the only) eye-candy I have in Nan Yang. Oh my freaking god, it felt so damn real?!?!?!!??? ;__; Since the first time I saw him, I kept thinking he is so damn hot. Like, it's not everyday that I find people hot.... I usually just find guys cute/funny/attractive. But dude, you have to admit that this guy is hot.. Sometimes I look at him and feel that well.. he isn't exactly very handsome but but but he is just so damn attractive and hot but also cute with that eyesmile???? He used to have a girlfriend, and I was like "aaaaAAHHHHH cute couple bc they just look cute" and also "she's so lUCKYYYYYY!!!" BUT they broke off. Quite sad.. :( I stalk him on social media but I do not dare to follow him because... well... I'm generally a shy and socially awkward person. :-) ..... Like I said, it's nice having somebody to spazz over without iking or falling for him because only then there'll only be fun nad happiness, and no heartbreak.

Right, I was so happily dreaming of that dude, I ended up being an hour late for PW OP dry-run because I overslept. Gosh you have no idea how sorry I felt... I really did feel guilty okay? I'm sorry once again, my dear NY024 :(

Thankfully, dry run went well and Choo and I went to Macpherson to check out the Vans' warehouse sales. The warehouse location is actually 190 Macpherson Road, Level 1, but I don't know what's wrong with me, I read it as 1 Macpherson Road. So I ended up keying that into my maps, and we were kinda lost because the nearest MRT station to that place wasn't Macpherson's... And we were also extremely hungry then, so we decided to go to my mum's office to have lunch first befre setting out to find the warehouse. When I went up and talked to my mum, I realized that I keyed in the wrong road name. Lol.. Luckily we decided to go for lunch first rather than stupidly looking for the warehouse. Thus, Choo and I went to the Jap stall at my mum's office. And boy was it good...

We ordered saba fish, pork chop and the japanese curry. Hehehe!

After that we also bought dessert to share. It's been so long since I've last had Chng Teng and it's so damn good. T_T Uhm, after lunch, my uncle fetched the both of us to the warehouse. We went in and take a look and lol, the designs were not bad and it's really cheap but the sizes left were all the odd sizes.. So we ended up leaving empty handed. My uncle then fetch us back to the office. Since we didn't have anything to do, we ended up going for dessert again. I bought grass jelly drink while Choo went for Chng Teng again. HAHAH. After eating, we went back to the office and talked a little. When it's 5:30pm, aka dismissal time, my uncle just dropped Choo at Macpherson MRT while we went for dinner at the Old Airport Road. Oh my, the food there is really good!!

Had oyster(蚝煎), pan-fried dumplings and Shanghai xiao long bao!!!!

lol it's actually 11:38pm right now and I feel so hungry looking at the pictures. ZZZZZ!!! Okay goodnight! oh if you're free, do entertain me at: ask.fm/CharmaineTwqx please. I really don't have anything to do.... ;_;

Goodnight~

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