Late night selfie. I've decided to deactivate twitter because all I've been doing nowadays is go on twitter and start screaming and spazzing about my drama. Or even worse, see stupid people on twitter and then unleash my not-so-inner-inner-beast. I really have to start controlling my internet usage as well as my temper.. I cannot carry on being like this, and I am painfully aware of that. Like I've said, 2015 will be an extremely important year for me, and yet I'm not even doing anything about it now. This isn't how life is supposed to be, Charmaine. You've always claimed how you hate it when people are inflexible and not able to adapt, but it's about time for you to realize that the biggest problem with you is that you're over-flexible, so much to the extent that you don't even find it necessary to plan out things anymore, you'll just go ahead with things and when you face problems, just solve it on the spot. I mean, it's definitely not a bad thing how you can adapt fast (*fans self bc too bhb but hello, shut up, don't judge, I'm having some serious million dollar talk with myself), but you really need to learn to start planning. Life will definitely be more organized and smooth-sailing if you were to start planning. 

Yes, I do get mad when people insist on having everything written down and planned because I do not see the need to. But, eventually, when I have calmed down from my wave of rage and madness, I actually do think about it. And I've eventually come to realizing that, yes, maybe whatever I'm doing isn't right. This doesn't mean that I'm wrong, nor that the other party is right, it simply means that both party should calm the hell down and see what went wrong. It takes two to clap, I really believe that there's more than one side to everything, thus I'll always analyze everything I come across in my daily life. This is why my brain is always running, this is also why I tend to overthink. Trust me, I'm a lot better already, I used to be much worse than that. Overthinking kills, but not thinking... You might as well just go and die. lol, I seriously think it's good for people to think and analyze things for themselves rather than just following the popular choices or following their friends. Okay, so as I was saying, there's always two sides to everything, but sad to say, when I rage, my inner-beast tend to convince the rational part of me that "No, the other party is just an asshole, you're always right". But that's only normal, because, there must be a reason (or more than one tbh) why we choose to do certain things, and it's precisely because of our choice and our own reasoning, we tend to ignore whatever others say when we're mad. Once I've cooled down, I'll start seeing things from the other person's point of view and then slowly, and painfully so, admit my mistakes. That makes me a better person than you. :-) I mean, come on, I don't immediately give up my own stand, neither do I completely ignore what others have to say... I do deserve some credit for that okay. 

Okay enough of my 12am non-coherent rants, time to show off my new pajamas!!! It's pink in color. Actually, I got this pullover from FOX basics, and I didn't intend to use it as a pajamas, but after washing it once, it became 1.5x bigger, like dude wtf? So yeah, no choice. It's really comfortable though. And Charmaine, please start working hard soon, this is the last holidays for you to slack, no more next time, promise. Love you! Your hardwork will be paid off.