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Sunday, 28 December 2014
Mentality
Is it possible for me to feel extremely intrigued by a guy whoms D I do not want? I mean, not literally, but you get it right? Like, I'm just really curious about this guy. I've never seen anybody quite like that before.. I just want to know what is he thinking about. I've always felt that we're quite similar, then there's this one day, I found out that he feels the same way too. So I'm just like, maybe if I get to know him more, I can figure myself out. I really don't get myself most of the time. I believe it's because I've always known that "there's two sides to everything" thus I'll tend to look at everything from many point of views and I realized that it's making me a really conflicting and messed up person. It's like, sometimes I'm just like "Oh it doesn't matter what kind of a person are you, as long as you're nice to me, or as log as you leave me alone, I'm okay with you." Then the next moment I'll just be like "I don't care whether you're nice to me or what, if you in general is a shitty person, I don't wish to have anything to do with you". If you think the voice in your head is killing you, can you imagine having multiple voices nagging at the back of your mind everyday? Another thing is, I keep having this feeling that, people can read my mind. LOL. What the fuck even. So sometimes when I have some really screwed up thinking, another voice in my head will start having a conversation with the initial voice, asking her to shut up because "people can hear". LOL. Okay look, I'm definitely not insane. I think it's more like I'm slightly paranoid and really weird. Not insane because I'm still fully aware of everything that is happening to me. Okay I just contradicted myself because I said that I really don't get myself.... LOL. To clarify, it simply means that I do not know what I want but I'm aware of what I'm doing/thinking of. Get it? When I say "I do not know what I want", I don't mean that I'm unsure of my future, it's just that, sometimes I have no idea what will I get out of the things I say/do, which makes me frustrated because I think that's rather..... brainless. One should never act without knowing the consequences of his or her actions. Also, another thing... Some bitches be thinking they real as fuck when they just shoot whatever's in their mind. Nope, I'm sorry, that's just being downright brainless and insensitive. Whatever you have up there, at least think of the possible consequences before shooting it out because you're not very "direct/truthful/real/honest" by doing that. I'm not asking you to sugercoat your words, neither am I asking you to lie nor to keep your comments all to yourself. But, think first. The least you can do is analyze whether whatever you're about to say is going to help make a difference, if it's redundant, how about help reduce noise pollution and just keep it to yourself? Please, if you're born with a brain, use it, it's yours to keep/use anyways, nobody can help you if you don't wanna make full use of it. Always remember, if you're not academically inclined, it's okay, as long as you know how to 做人 y'see. In this society, it's mostly about how you present yourself anyways. 如果不会做人，不管有多聪明都没用。。 |