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Tuesday, 27 January 2015
I really do feel very guilty and bad about myself. And I figured I do not need any external forces to make me feel even worse about myself, and thus I've decided to run away and avoid them like a plague if possible. Contrary to popular beliefs, Charmaine's inferiority complex is actually pretty serious, so please, spare me the agony of self-hate. I wanted to blog about this issue that has been on my mind... Actually, no, I've been thinking of many things, but I just can't seem to put my feelings and thoughts into words.. I'll figure it out one day, probably when I'm fueled by emotions. But yeah, I promised myself to come back a better me after Chinese New Year. I won't let myself be put down nor let myself feel bad about myself because of the people around me anymore. I know some people don't mean it, it's just them, but yeah, this is just me too, to avoid the things and people that'll make me feel upset. But there are also some asshole that does it on purpose, to pressure others, to show off, well, here's a big FUCK YOU to you. Stop being a cunt and grow the hell up, insecure asshole trying to put others down just to make yourself feel slightly better about you and your pathetic ass (and ass-like grades).I don't deserve such negativity in my life. That's the least I can do for myself now. |