So I turned 18 on the 19th. 

Nothing much this year, except the unexpected turmoil of sadness engulfing me since 18th September. It only went away on the 21st. 

It's really nothing, just another day, except that I can now watch M18 Movies without getting chased out, purchase alcohol without adults' help, enter the club (like hell yeah I will be going there anytime soon). Yeah, it really isn't anything much.

I should stop expecting and start appreciating. Not that I haven't been appreciating the things I'm given, but it's only human nature to crave for more. It's the very insatiable thirst for more that drives us forward.. except I'm always left behind because I am always looking back. 

But really Charmaine, just let it go and look forward and keep going. 

You, of all people, should know that life ain't a bed of roses.

Stiffen up that upper lip and hurt no more. 

Happy 18th Birthday Charmaine. 

PS: JC friends celebrated my birthday for me today, they're so hilarious and obvious though. HAHA okay I really love them a lot. To be honest, even a "Happy Birthday!" would suffice because really, there are people who can't even do that, because they simply don't bother enough, oh well. 

PPS: I really have to work harder.  SIAN.