I have not watched the movie.

But the term past lives got me thinking. I wonder if it's my personality or ego that speaks when I think of people from my past lives. 

I don't often think of people from my past life because there are already so many things and people to think about in my present life. When I do think of them, it mostly stems from regret. It's funny how I think of people who cast me out of their lives more often than people who are low-maintenance friends.

Admittedly, I have not always been the best person or friend. But I definitely worked on myself a lot in the past few years. I guess that's why people from my past life scare me. I don't want to be seen and associated with the person I used to be but if they knew me from back then that's all they have of me. 

It's funny and very puzzling to me how I have become the person this old friend decided to abandon out of everybody else. I may not have been the best friend to them but I definitely do not think that I ever did anything horrible or bad to them. If they can be happy for an acquaintance-type friend why did they choose to abandon me? Like, maybe there were expectations I didn't live up to. I have so many hypotheses that should not even matter because I should live my own life and move on. 

I always wonder why people think they have the power to torment me like this but in all honesty, it is myself. I handed it to them.